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December 2017



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NaNo went super smooth for me today.

Or so I thought.

And then I realized the anime sorta contradicts what I wrote since I was basing everything on the manga. I mean, I've seen half of the first season of Kuroko no Basket but I've read 20 volumes so all I really know is the manga. Unfortunately, the Tip Off special is in the latter half of the first season that I haven't watched yet. And it messes with my story.

So what should I do? Rewrite that part of the story? If I do, I'll have to reorder it as well. Timeline wise, the anime jumped around what was written in the manga so while I could make it work, it'll take a little finesse. And they added stuff too, and I kinda do what to put that in my story, but since that part of the anime is in Kise's PoV and my story is in Kuroko's, it'll take a little work there too. Plus, I'm not really sure it's all worth it to be truthful. I liked what I wrote. It fits with the manga. It's not bad. I'm almost loathed to lose it because for once, I'm actually somewhat satisfied with what I wrote. It's not all crap! Do you know how rare it is for me to feel that way about my own writing? I suppose I feel like if I change it, what I write now will inevitably be worse than it was before. But what if it's better?
I don't know what to do.

Trying to write a story that based on canon is hard when you have two sources of canon... And when they're slightly different from each other.

I know I should have finished the manga at the very least. And it would have been better if I had finished the anime too before November. But I didn't. And I'm still working on it. I need to get to volume 25 at the very least. That seems like a very important volume since it's basically all Teikou and how they all fell apart and it's essential for my story because that's where it all comes together for Kise and Kuroko... I have to get them together at that point. If I don't, then this story is meaningless and I've failed to tell my story. OTL

I'm feeling kinda lost here. Rewrite? Add extra content? Should I push myself to match up with the anime canon? Does it even matter? Maybe I should think about this after November... They do tell you not to edit, right? Ignore the inner editor... But ugh, if it wasn't a canon issue, I would feel much better about this. I don't like stories that take place in canon to take a lot of liberties. And based on that special episode I just watched, I took a lot of liberties. o.O

So how can I ignore this?

And seriously, I felt so good about the 3K I wrote today too... I made it to 20K words total, I didn't hate what I wrote, I got to a good place in my story... And then this had to happen. It's so sad, it's funny.


NaNoWriMo, you continue to frustrate the hell out of me. Even when things are good, they're still bad.